yeah, my blog is rotting. well. recently hab been skipping school. feel no use of going school. i skipped my prelim exams. hopeless right ? no choice. went back school ytd. was rotting whole day. nth to do too. my result was like shit. expected. todae, didnt went school. went to take mc as i was having serious flu and sore throat. doctor gib me 2 days mc. cant speak as i have no voice. so xinku. sight.

i'm going to sleep. byes ~

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yeah ! finally got time to be back in blogging. sigh ! didnt do much in september holiday. i jus thrown my book into my bag and cupboard to rot. i didnt even touch it. i tell myself no matter how oso much study, too bad, temptation of going out is strong. i went out almost everyday. ton every night. cycling, mahjonging and toning i did almost everyday. it was filled wib boredom but luckily, boyf was wib me. went bowling on one of e day wib boyf, yishi and cripple leonard. onli 3 of us playe except for e cripple, spoilt mood. me and yishi ball keep washing e drain. -.-'' so paiseh. our total score not even win our boyf. went acrade to play. boyf catch bear for me. so cute of him. i thought he is lousy. but he manage to catch 2 of it. love him. leonard oso catch one for yishi. dhen cab home and mahjong.

didnt turn out for remedial in e holiday. wondering how am i going to flunked my prelim. well, hard work did pay right ? sometimes, i wonder, am i lucky to score well sometimes or i am born clever ? hahas, i guess i am jus plain lucky. i told myself to work hard and not to disappoint teacher, but i jus simply cant force myself tostudy. grrr, sometime, i jus hate myself. for being a coward of running from studies.

went cycling to bedok jetty. was very tired yet boyf see no help me ask me to jiay0u. grrr. heartless him. come back still bring me walk long way. awww, my muscle aching !

went fishing at pasir ris park one of e day in e holiday. got sun burn without standing in e sun. wtf. it irritates me as my skin started to peel off. grr. a guy who was at there, keep competing wib us see who catch more. -.-'' at least, boyf catch a big one. i was bored at there, stay there more dhen 9 hrs i estimated. alot of patient from me.

ohhs well. a guy pissed me off in e holiday. damn irritating and got no dignity. he took no. from me. dhen we got disgreement in each other and thus, i get him not to contact me anymore. but, he everytime try luck to msg me. saying until like we very close. like to say, i am ____, you forgotten me already. during the holiday, he call my boyf. -.-'' asking him got any job intro. i say even got oso wun intro stranger right. did i say wrong ? dhen i say he very irritating. ask him to grow mature abit. dhen he say tat i am not mature and whether i noe any sec 3 called joan. dhen i replied, i didntsay i am mature, but i not like him no dignity and shameless. i have been kind in my words to him already. but he got over my limit of tolerance. i wanna fcuk care him, dhen he replied tat if i got dignity, i wun gib boyf any attitude. wad's tat gonna to do wib attitude ? i ask him whether he mean joan as joanna and he said my school volley ball girls more chio. dhen i ask him name me who and ask him dun tr to be smart aleck. he didnt reply and my boyf clled him and he switch off phone. so timid still dare wanna scold ppl. he wan commented on my looks, when take no. say so much. so i ask him to urine and take a good look of himself. spopilt my mood, deprived my happy mood. grrr !

many thing have happen. classmates are not getting along well. i dun wanna side who. i dun wanna get involve, it is none of my business. i dunn0e wad misunderstanding we got in between tat you are treating me cold. i dun wanna lose any frenz. i n0e you are beinbg mistreated, i n0e ur suffering, i n0e wad are you grumbling abt, yet, i cannot do anything. sigh. does tat mean i can onli choose one of you both ? i wanna talk to you, wanna console you, but you are n0w like a cold wall, shutting all ur emotions. sometime, you will tell me ur problems, i misses e day, we are close. i pray and hope, tis situation wun last long.

frenz can back stab each other for their jealously. sigh, wad make a strong friendship ? making use of each other ? saying bad things ? back stab ? who dun need a best frenz who understand him/her. tis society, let me see many ppl wib ugly side, yet, i onli can act silly and dumb of it. things who see pretty from outside or to others, have a ugly truth. boyf say i am too naive, believe wad ppl say easily, get bully oso wun say out. yeah, tis is way ppl took advantage of me. i feel hurt in e way they treated me, whos ever know ?

lastly, i feel sorry to mr goh. chemistry paper was quite easy, yet i didnt study at all. well, i admit i am hopeless. wad to do ? things aren't going smoothy. sigh. i am turning my blog into personal recount jus for tis post. i am too emotional.

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saturday went paya lebar there find boyf. after tat, went buy octopus ball and kfc. e night market was damn cramp lahs. so hot too. me and boyf was having bickering. l0lols, we are damn lame. after tat, cab back auntie hse. play mahjong for e whole night. well. i'm energetic. went home in e sunday morning. watch show till 4 plus. finally, was too tired and so my eyes was close and soon, fallen into my dreamland. wake up at 10 plus, call boyf. but he kept ask me to sleep. so i went. i was quite disappointed wib him. sigh.

i overslept todae, so didnt went school. i slept for 18 hrs in total. i not purposely wan skip school. think teacher called me. boyf say until i purposely dun wanna go. fine l0r. having quarrel wib him. sometimes, i reali wonder, did he reali believe me. he jus kept doubting my words. saying i broke my promises. yeah. i did broke it. he nvr break his promises before. well, he onli n0e how to say me but not himself. wad ever. i'm too angry to blog anything now. byes !

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yeah, finally i'm done up with my blog. so fcuk up when doing it. damn blogger. anyway, having english and geography papers on tuesday. e english passage was -.-'' hard plus e combination of e question = flunked ! same with geography. i see no hope in my prelim. most subject sure 100% flunked ! wed maths and physic paper. maths was surprisingly quite easy, but no time to finish. physic paper was e most hard paper i ever did. i didnt even noe 1 questions of it man ! damn it ! everyone was complaining and groaning abt e physic paper. if got zero for it, i would not be surprised.

few days back ago, went paya lebar there derhs night market. n0e wad ? my boyf starting to play with e games down there. childish l0rhs. he's playing gun. e game sux lahs,cheating ppl money we need to shoot EXACTLY at the middle, cannot touch e boarder. dhen eat italian ice cream, i guess ? you n0e that kind of sticky ice cream that stick onto the cone ? it only $2, me and boyf thought he will do some tricks, but none of it being displayed. disappointed.

went 'JIA TOU' ytd with boyf. e food was quite nice lahs. boyf wanna buy e martell cordon blue small one with metals bar at 2 sides. it's very chio lahs. he shout $1000 but when eperson going say until e third times, ppl shout price again. $1200. so we let them. boyf went toilet, and another big martell with metals bar was being sold by $1088. it very cheap l0rhs. boyf was regretted of going to toilet that time. hahaas. no choice, we got to buy something, to protect and bless us for things to go smoothly. so in e end, we buy a martell + rice for $500. boyf jus shout out $500 whe e price only being shout till $200 plus ? dhen he keep complaining. hahaas, serve him right ! dh cab back auntie hse mahjong. todae no exam = no school = holiday ! but was doing blog whole day.

guys, pls motivate me to study. i keep slacking. sigh.

well, i'm tired, going take a nap and meet boyf for dinner.

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